a dreamer at ease

The warm glow of memory envelopes you like a comforting blanket. The smooth sounds of the saxophone makes your mind wander with visions of Paris streets in the rain. Of moonlit walks along the river. Of sweet, innocent gestures like hand-holding. Of lovers slow-dancing in sync. The music drifts through your mind, stirring the sheets of written thoughts from their sleep. You can't help but smile softly, for you are at ease.

a dream encased in memories

It scares me that I can't remember. What is life but a collection of memories. If I can't remember memories how can I live life? That's why pictures are so important. They can trigger memories. Scents do that, too. But the images that flicker in my mind have already slipped through the sands of time. They are irretrievable. Done. Finito. Life is cruel.

a dream in the stream of consciousness

I feel the most alone when I'm surrounded by people. I know it's cliche but it's true. These people are...insubstantial. They're the plastic film on a kraft cheese square. It's like I'm in high school again. A high school of cheese...ha ha What would I be? The brie? Maybe this James Joyce fellow's got it right. a bunch of kraft cheese squares and some warm brie. They're the attention seekers hey look at me i'm a billion dollar company founded on crappy cheese. i think i'm going insane. or maybe it's the ben and jerry's. but seriously why am i always B and others act like A's. i'm a damn A+ but nooo she follows the rules and actually does her hw and cares about her education. do i think i'm better? probably; most people do

a dream of a blank page

The beauty of a blank page. The immensity of it. The thickness; the lightness. Rich with possibilities. The candle's flickering flame alights the page in an uncertain, wavering way. The pen's intrusive touch breaks the sanctity of the wholeness. And yet it sends ever-expanding ripples across the smooth surface.

a dreamer says goodbye to the handsome man

You never expect your boyfriend to have an expiration date stamped on your relationship. You don't expect him to call you incompatible or "two different people." You can't believe he doesn't care about the things you say -- apparently they're insubstantial. It's like he just woke up one day and thought hmm I don't like my girlfriend anymore. I deserve someone who respects me. Who cares about what I have to say. Who enjoys my company. Who doesn't start this conversation over text. Who doesn't expect to "hook up" after he breaks up with me. Who brings passion to the relationship. Who doesn't attack my personality or lifestyle choices. Who doesn't make me feel insubstantial or unintelligent. Who adores me. So goodbye.

a dream in the comfort of a handsome man

The lean, taut muscles of the handsome man. The feeling of security and serenity. The rushing heartbeat ebbing softer, paralleling the progress of the breathing. The gentle fingers running through the graceful hair. The lean, taut muscles.

a dream in the world of social media

Two people are face-to-face having a conversation. As the conversation lengthens, one person taps into the emotions of the second. The second henceforth pours her feelings out and may be having a mini breakdown. The other person has listened to everything the acquaintance has said, stops, and leaves. In the meantime the emotional person excuses the silent one's behavior as an either lack of concern or sudden preoccupation elsewhere. Both excuses are practical. Hours later the emotional one feels a poke at her back. She turns, and no one is there. The end. 

a dreamer in blah blah land

So the day has finally come. It's not a good day; it's rather terrible. I knew it would arrive and I expected the pain. It's a mixed feeling day because, well,  logically I knew it would happen and I deserve better and it's been over for a while and blah blah blah. But still…it hurts. And you can't block out your emotions.

a dreamer in a game of bait and switch

I've done everything I could. Pushed myself to great heights. And yet I am given no award. Or, at least, not the award I truly need. Then the guilt comes in waves and I realize I'm at the epicenter of my family's misery. Damn college. Bait and switch. Bait and switch.

a dreamer with a mirror

The deepest compartment of your mind is never truly unlocked. You know it all along. You didn't throw away the key--you hold it in your back pocket. Maybe it's just for you, for your eyes only. But it's there. It's always there.

a dreamer in…denial?

I'm not comfortable in my own skin. It's excessive. There's too much of it. This isn't me--it can't be…I am not my skin.

a dream too deep in my head

I need to get out of my head. For it is swimming with thoughts that are not my own. Memories tangle and drown. Feelings swarm and fill the basin. I must get out.

a dream in winter

It falls softly, slowly, sweetly, gently covering the earth like a childhood blanket. The world is hushed. The footprints are forgotten. Time stands still. Words like peaceful, serene, and calming attempt to explain the effect it has. But only you can gaze out your window, hugging a mug of steaming cocoa, and decide what it means to you.

a dream in the mundane world

Is this what life is?
A passing of days,
a cycle of sleep,
a greeting to some?
Well, I think it's boring.
Monotonous
Mundane
Morose
Where's the excitement?
Where's the love?
Sigh.
I just thought there'd be more.

a dream lost

It's late. And I'm thinking. Too much. My thoughts begin with a spark, then travel around in circles until I feel lost. My mind is a whirlpool of sadness, sucking me in and suffocating me. Someone pull me out.

a dream suffocated by love

Please make it stop. I don't want to hurt anymore.

a dream above

I like to watch the little toy town with its little toy cars and its little toy houses. The little toy cars drive in neat little lines amidst the neat little houses. Oh, how they are so little and I am so big.

a dream rethinking

I'm the problem. Maybe this whole time it's been me…Over-thinking, dwelling, clutching onto the past.  True, I didn't cheat, but maybe I was too clingy or gullible. Some people blame others and I'm not above that but maybe I should just blame myself.

a dream back home

The comforting embrace. The loss of time. The inexplicable happiness. It's all back for an instant. And it feels like home.

a dream in power

Life is about power. I am immensely powerful. I am a force to be reckoned with. I can play games too.